Almost 13 years....
Same town, same people, same everything.
Friendly neighbours, cute highschool boys.
An hour to walk around town, two minutes to the mall.
Summers fulled with parties and 10 hour trips to the beach across the road.
Hundreds of friends, a well known teenage girl.
She lacks nothing at all.
She has what most girls wish for.
A break in time....
Almost 2 years....
Different town, different people, different everything.
New neighbours who don't give two shits
highschool boys, don't have girl-friends without them 'benefits'
summers are filled with pure boredom because she feels her friends don't know she exists.
twent friends, an unknown girl.
she lacks everything and is seeking for more.
She wishes for what most girls have....
friends that would give their lives for her.
I wrote this tonight because i got to thinking, all though i shouldn't dwell on my past i cant help to wonder why my so called friends out here can' even acknowledge my own birthday, when back home i'd have 100's of people calling to go at something.
I want to go home.
I want to not worry
i want to end a relationship and have 20-30 people console me
I want to start fights with slutty teenage girls and have my 'posse' backing me up
i want to be able to steal girls boyfriends with no fear of getting my ass kicked because they are afraid of the 'popular crowd"
i want to be able to walk from one part of town to the other at 4 in the morning in a tube top and skirt and stilletos with no fear, no fear of getting picked up.
I want to be able to not fear robberies, murders, and violence other than the violence me and my group cause.
I WANT TO GO HOME.
YET I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE....
This goes out to everyone back home in Labrador City.
i'm missin out on new babies being born, weddigs, breakups, graduations, sweet 16's .
i can't do it anymore :(
I FUCKING LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU.
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